A Note From The Directors

Logan Rozos and Lexie Bean are both trans suicide survivors who have been hospitalized. This film is a gift to the versions of ourselves who came out and didn't see a way forward. When Logan came out as trans, he had no idea what kind of man he might become, and felt parts of his soul had to be boxed up and packed away in order to be a man at all. When Lexie first came out, he was debilitated with the fear of replicating the men who sexually abused him in his childhood. 

As we honor the lives of the two trans boys at the heart of this film, Blake and Kyler, we untangle how navigating masculinity, transphobia, and other forms of oppression affects our community. What Will I Become? is a film for people who escaped one limiting form of gender expression to find themselves being shut into another one, whose imaginations were forcibly limited and so couldn’t find their own futures. It’s for those who didn’t know how or where to give voice to their experiences, and who have been failed by systems that at once degrade their sense of safety and mental health and pathologize them. 

Navigating masculinity as a trans person shouldn't be a death sentence for the soul, or the body, or the truths of our lived experiences. This film not only demands the destigmatization of suicide as a public health crisis, but the destigmatization of our community as a whole. 

In What Will I Become? we ask: what are the alternatives to those who feel the urge to cut their own becomings short? 

- Lexie Bean and Logan Rozos co-directors of What Will I Become?